Learning to accept what is

I am a master of procrastination.  I know that I must finish a project for work tonight and instead I'd rather update my blog.  I suppose I need to strike while the iron is hot!  My son and I have been house sitting and it has been absolutely glorious.  The house has incredible energy and I am inspired to go back home and create a sanctuary that envelopes me with love.  I realize that although I seem to think that I am positive person, I can often have very negative subconscious self talk that make me question my self worth.  I was confronted by a very sad week that sort of spiraled with negative thoughts.  All of a sudden I was reminded that I am the queen of overcoming all obstacles that come my way.  I have always been up for the challenge and succeeded at whatever I put my mind to.  Sometimes it is easy to forget this when we are down on ourselves.  We are constantly hearing that we need to practice the art of self love yet there is no specific road map.  We often confuse self care like getting a massage and pedicure as self love and they are not exactly the same thing.  I think that a huge of part of self love is learning to forgive ourselves and forgive others.  I am still a work in progress when it comes to forgiveness.  I sure do know how to hold a grudge!  Little by little I learning to build on the tools I lacked learning as a child.  I am looking forward to building my tool kit!